Live BIG.

My dear friend Amy made a comment in passing today about my “big personality.”  I immediately called her on it, asking if she really thought that about me.  And her reply was to the effect of “Yeah, well, with people that you really know.”  And this has got me thinking…

There are so many things in life that keep us small, quiet, separated, boxed up.  I am an introvert by nature and I do love how that adds to who I am.  But there is a HUGE difference between being introverted and being clamped down.  And I think that maybe, just maybe, I have been letting a whole lot of things keep me small (Let’s be honest, there is no maybe. I know this to be true).  Not that I don’t have my moments; and not that I have more of those moments than I did say five years ago.  I mean, let’s face it, I sold nearly all of my belongings and moved to Nicaragua.  So there’s definitely a good chance that I got some spunk somewhere.

But most of all, I want to LIVE big, to LOVE big.  I love and serve a BIG God and He’s got this.  All of my fears and all of my worries, they’re nothing.  It’s true, I can’t do any part of this thing called life all by myself.  But with God, life can be full of possibilities IF I let go and trust.  And that is what He is calling me to.  It’s what He is calling all of us to.  So today I am declaring ENOUGH ALREADY!  It is time to LIVE- 

Today, humble Today, presents itself to us with all the ceremony and bling of a glittering diamond ring: Wear me, it says. Wear me out. Love me, dive into me, discover me, it pleads with us.  ~ Shauna Niequist

And for those of you who think of me as quiet and well-mannered, here is just a little glimpse of that “big” personality Amy might have been referring to (and well, I’m just going to pretend that I’m not mortified sharing it with you):

 

So if I’m being TOTALLY honest, you are completely going to have to remind me that I just declared to leave my Life-Limiting fears out on the curb with the rest of my garbage because well, sometimes they just have a way of creeping back up.  So thanks in advance.

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And I promise this blog a little more appealing in time, but let’s face it, I’ve been putting off creating one for a good year, so I’ve gotta start somewhere!